Talk 1-on-1 with a Peer Specialist About Fear of abandonment

Hi! I am 61 years old, survivor: chronic health challenges, PTSD, grief, and anxieties. I have lived through past traumas, mentally and physically. (This includes religion trauma). I have experienced and survived the family Narcissists that come along with Gaslighting. As the youngest of five, in a dysfunctional family setting (Better known as family dynamics) I have met the spirits of abandonment, power-control and rejection; but with separation I am free, with my own positive qualities and identity. I have grieved the deaths of one sibling in 1989, my father 2015, mother 2022, and others throughout my lifetime. I am a mother of one son (He was diagnosed with ADHD at age 3, later with PTSD). I am a grandmother of three (the oldest grandchild age 7, diagnosed with seizures). Both gifted, with talents beyond measure. I was the caregiver for my mother diagnosed with dementia from 2014-June 2022. This was the hardest challenge in my life that brought me to my knees, no more codependency, but total trust in God. (HUMILITY, PURPOSE IN MY PAIN). My mother at this time had four living children, but I stood alone, they considered me the black-sheep, but God said, I was chosen, set-apart for something greater, (prosperity). Self-care was very difficult as a carer, but I would do it all over again, if I had to. My mother was my greatest influence and mentor. I loved her dearly. My son and I are still in the healing process (childhood trauma recovery) and spiritual deliverance. A son and mother estranged for 13 years, now re-bonding. I'm not where I want to be, but I'm not where I used to be. Substance use with an eating disorder wanted to give me a way to escape this painful world in 2012, but God said you shall live and not die. So I'm here to share my lived experience, how I overcame it. I'm an expressive writer as you can see. Poetry and Spoken-Words releases the bad, good and ugly. The paper does not judge. It advocates and gives a voice to the voiceless. The pen 🖊 spills, what our lips can not speak. (Our Truth) My motto is: Knowledge Brings Clarity and Clarity Brings Power. I currently have a companion (Pet), my "Kitten" Mr. "Gabriel”. He hunts my legs and feet as I walk. I purchased interactive toys, but he still chooses me. (The love ❤ ️ bites). I am a (Faith-Based) Certified Peer Specialist (CRSS), Dementia Facilitator and a Resource Specialist for Women and children of domestic violence. I have learned that every attack doesn't deserve a carnal reaction, I have learned when to be silent and when to speak and most of all, I have learned when to walk away. I was broken in the pit for my Rebirthing to share my spiritual gift, unconditional love with many. My global "Brand" name is Rebirth4Love. I'm here to tell you that: Our past does "NOT" define our destiny!!!

As a daughter of a narcissistic mother and someone who has endured religious trauma, I want you to know this first: you are not alone. I was born and raised in Pakistan and have navigated my own journey through anxiety, CPTSD, depression, and dyslexia. For a long time, I carried guilt, confusion, and the quiet feeling of never being fully seen. Therapy was a meaningful and supportive part of my healing, and I’m grateful for the clarity it provided. Over time, I also began attending peer support groups, where I experienced something deeply transformative, being witnessed by others who showed up vulnerably and met me as an equal. That sense of shared humanity shifted my healing in profound ways. I originally trained and worked as a medical doctor, but I came to understand that my heart was in creating spaces centered on connection, presence, and lived experience.

Broad lived experience & passionate about helping. CPSS.

Grounded support for real life and recovery.

I help you get honest with yourself and unstuck