I got drug induced psychosis that never went away. I am officially diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I suffer from mania and religious disordered thinking. I have religious trauma. Dr's say im paranoid but I feel im not and that my thoughts are real. I dont know what's real and whats my illness. I dont trust Dr's becsuse they have always traumatized me. Everytime I go to thr hospital I stay for a couole months and its really worn me out. Ive isolated myself from everyone except my toxic family. Im on disability.